My Eye

A few weeks ago I had a dream that the iris on my right eye fell off. It was horrifying. In the dream, I kept trying to put the green part of my eye back in place just as I do with my contact lenses. I looked down at the concave, speckled disc balanced on […]

Debris

I’ve woken up with a small case of the Monday morning blues. Despite a gentle breeze playing with the curtain near my bed, the sounds of spring, fresh and dewy, I felt a heaviness in my chest in the first waking moments. Pull it together, Nat, I thought, you live a charmed life. I went […]

Forty

Today is the last day of May. May 2017 has been my motivational target for the past ten years. It has been the carrot that kept me moving through many moments of failure, heartache and disillusionment. I had a very disappointing thirtieth birthday, nobody’s fault, just an unmet expectation which caused a little internal crisis. […]

Dreams

I put a lot of stock in dreams. I dream almost every night— meaning, I wake up conscious that I have dreamt. Most often I can only remember vague details or a sense of emotion, but occasionally they are intense lucid stories. These are the night-thoughts I never forget. I once dreamed several times about […]